I want to walk on water with You, Jesus. I long to be able to defy my circumstances, gravity and other laws of nature, and just walk on the water with You.
The weighty things of life can make me sad, worried, or frustrated, and send me spiraling into depression. I want to learn how to be brash and brave like Peter, and step out of that boat of worry to walk on the waves with You.
I don’t claim any understanding about what was going on in the spiritual realm when You walked those waters, but the story tells us that in the physical the waters were churning. The wind was blowing hard, and the disciples may have even wondered if they could survive the storm.
But storm or no storm, Peter was the only one who got out of that heaving boat to join You on the stormy water, and that is what I want to do too. In those moments when he followed Your call to join You in defying the laws of nature, Peter’s trust in You was complete, lacking in absolutely nothing.
I want to live the rest of my life being like Peter was in those few moments: with complete faith and trust in You.
When life looks like it’s in a meltdown, and everything around me is in a whirlwind, the one thing I can control is how I react to You. I know You are there, inviting me to walk in the peace You have already given me, to trust You to defy nature, time, and space to answer me, and to have faith that You can, and will, come to my rescue and my aid.
Whenever I contemplate getting out of the rolling boat made so by the agitated waters of my life’s circumstances, I tend to look at the waves more than I look at You. Common sense tells me to focus on the danger more than the One who can calm the waves. I often respond to You: ‘calm the waves first, then I will come to You‘…but I think I am now ready to say, ‘Whatever life throws at me, watch me get out of this boat and walk on water with You!’
You’ve given Your people peace that passes understanding, and walking in that is one way to defy the laws of nature. Putting our trust in You no matter what the storms look like is like walking on the waters that would otherwise whip us about. Living in faith while focusing on You keeps us stable; it allows us not to be dragged down by the waters that are everywhere.
You have already given us what we need to walk on water with You.
I imagine there must also be exhilaration when we live like this! Your joy is our strength, You say. For those few moments when Peter realized that he really was doing the impossible and defying all naysayers, standing alone with You on water that should have swallowed him up, but didn’t, Your joy must have welled up in him and created a memory he could never forget!
What if I knew that every wave coming at me right now, is one that I can walk on and not get tossed about in? What if I knew that everything that is bothering me right now will be taken care of in the future; that I will be able to look back and say in wonder, ‘Look at how God took care of that!’? How differently would I look at all of it? Would I be as manipulated by emotions as I am today? Would the waves appear as big as they do today? Or would it then be easier to believe and to walk on water like Peter did? Not just for a few minutes, but as a lifestyle?
This is where the battle for Your joy and peace plays out. Back and forth my eyes and my thoughts go..between the waves and Your outstretched hand…between the waves and the knowledge I already have from past experience that You are good… between the waves and the stories I have heard from others of Your faithfulness to them…
Oh, to be so liberated and carefree, with my eyes so locked on You that nothing can take Your peace and joy from me! That desire is foremost in my heart and mind today!
I want to be done looking at the waves. I don’t care anymore what anyone thinks when I focus on You, instead of the things that should worry or scare me. Let them think I’m delusional or crazy; I just know that You offer us, every moment of every day, the ability to live a life that doesn’t conform, and isn’t traditional. I want to be done gauging other people’s response to You and then acting accordingly. My prayer is to be like Peter; to get out of the boat so as to join You on the water, no matter if no one else goes with me.
Renew my mind, Lord! Let me see the waves as being obedient to You. Let me always remember that You know the end from the beginning, and that You will bring good from any situation that faces us, no matter how bleak things may look. Teach me how to see through Your eyes so that I may walk on the waters with You.
(Matthew 14:22-36; Mark 6:45-56; John 6:16-24)
©Debbie Mendoza, May 2019
Also by this author: JoyHope – A Christian Daily Devotional. Ebook available on Amazon.